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>>>Friday, February 15, 2008

很久以前,已經聽過《潛水鐘與蝴蝶》的故事。今夜,在我們看電影之前,你卻說起攝影師中風的新聞。在你外景完畢,正想趕往醫院見他最後一面之前,他的喉管已被輕輕拔掉。幾天前還在捕捉天真嬌的神情,數天後竟已悄悄離開。於是車子改變路線,不用到醫院,直接回公司去。然後是你帶著通紅的雙眼跟我看電影。

無常是美麗,而美麗總叫人難過。電影有曾演過奧桑(Ozon)短片的漂亮男主角。臨中風前,他還意氣風發駕著開篷跑車駛過巴黎的大街小巷。看著倒轉的巴黎鐵塔,流瀉的曲子喚回我關於杜魯福的回憶──大概已看了廿次《四百擊》,又怎可能記不起?向杜魯福致敬,成為意外的快樂。

一個人擁有想像與回憶,即使被困囿於身體的牢籠,亦可以變成一隻自由自在的蝴蝶,殘而不廢。像我妙想天開,像我以為自己是蘇麗珍,我當然也是一隻幸福的蝴蝶。像我遇上杜魯福,給我帶來機遇,讓我愛上電影,讓我遇見那些美麗的人,更讓我看到那個人。我張看著,蝴蝶在飛舞。想像跟那個人大快朵頤。想像把嘴巴迎上他吐出來的舌頭。現實是,那個人站在我對面,而我一直看著自己的屏幕,凝神靜氣,壓抑翹起的嘴角。你是我的玉蝴蝶。

:: posted by my lock, 1:50 AM