Sorry. Terribly sorry.

I realize I was totally wrong which is not acceptable. I am 24 yet. I must be mature and considerate enough to deal with matters of relationship. I could not always act like a spoiled child and ask for attention and love in a completely wrong way. Of course I could understand "Crab Ding" did wrong things though he was hoping good in his words. Intention is meaningless if you do not learn to respect.

I do not feel insulted or humuiliated for what you did to me. This is not the first time that I committed mistakes and was punished in this way in turn. Several friends and lovers were pushed away for my arrogance and over-reaction. You are so sensible to say that I must be responsible to my own behaviour. I agree. It is nothing about love or hate for we are both independent human. Responsibility is in the first place. Though I am always stubborn and self-centered, I also understand what is right and wrong. To be a human.

I am so delighted that we once had a good start and the feeling of hoping genuine love. It was so amazing to wonder love. I still remember you are hoping for someone who would be a good listener. But it was me who lost control and did harmful things. I am repulsive to act or react. Still I could feel how you treated me. No complaints. You are actually excellent even what happened in yesterday. You gave me a lesson. Ironically, more appreciation and love is deeply planted. But I look for a change in attitude not because of your rewarding love. I understand it is my flaw and I am trying to be better. Otherwise, I will lead a regretted life.

I must be confident to go on myself and try to actualize my potential. Be a better person is not that easy but I should at least make an attempt.

I wish you good.